The thing about being fat your entire life is that you don't know how to be any other way. You don't know what it feels like to wear a bikini or shop in "normal" size clothing stores. You don't know what it's like to feel your collar bones or wear a belt. You certainly don't know what it is like to sit comfortable on an airplane or walk into a dance club without the "skinny" girls gawking at you. There is a difference between those of us who have always been fat and those people who were once a thin version of their current selves. For those like me, fat is the norm in our lives.
It also seems that people like myself are more comfortable saying the word "fat" when describing ourselves. So many people frown upon that word as if it is a curse! How dare you use that horrible word? Ha, if it does not offend me, being the fat one, then why should it offend my thin counterparts? This is something I will never understand. After all, is saying things like chubby, fluffy, big, big boned, overweight, oversize, chunky, husky or hefty any better? To me it sounds like someone is afraid...maybe ashamed...to accept that they are fat! Then again, I have always been known to be overly blunt to the point of offending others. Maybe that is rather the case here.
Whatever you call it, being fat or overweight, is simply not healthy for anyone. I am not one who believes that the BMI is the best way to judge healthy as everyone is built differently, and aside from my weight, smoking habits and a slightly elevated triglyceride level, my numbers are superb! Not bad for a 330 pound 29 year old! However, not good enough either. A year ago I started living a healthier and more active life. I have made so many mistakes and taken so many backwards steps, but I have also lost 25 pounds that have managed to stay off even with my affinity for fried food. The goal here is to speed up the process a little bit. Though I am very happy with my ability to lose 25 pounds and keep that off for the past year, I know that I could have lost more had I stayed on track a little more and not let so much in my life "knock me down".
That is what this blog is all about. I have nothing to be ashamed about. I live my life for me. I am fat and working on losing weight. I am going to stick to my current plan which simply means eating healthier and exercising daily. I refuse to go on a "diet" as I believe the best way to maintain any weight loss must be through replacing my bad habits with good habits that I can continue for the rest of my life. I know there will be obstacles and bad days..even weeks! I also know that I can and will get healthier slowly but surely. With this blog, I will come and talk about all the good and bad things that may or may not affect my weight loss. This may be the food I eat or the current guy I am dating. It could be my emotions or really anything in my life that may directly relate to my weight or not. Let's be honest, everything in my life is going to affect how this turns out and it should. After all, I am not on some ranch or in a bubble where the real world won't affect me!
So I invite you to follow me. Follow my story and post your thoughts and ideas. I only ask that you save the negativity for someone else. As you will see as time goes on, I have plenty of my own negativity that I will not need anyone else's!
